Life's Passions

     Two of my passions in life (outside of my children and family) have always been photography and cooking.  When I started having all of my health problems, especially the loss of vision, I didn't think I would enjoy either one ever again.  I will not say that I was wrong, but I will say that I was pleasantly surprised.

     For the longest time, I refused to even pick up a camera.  It was a reminder of what I was losing or what I had already lost.  However, my husband refused to let me just lay down and give up.  He took me on a road trip through the North Georgia mountains.  He made me take my camera.  When I did not want to get out of the car to take a picture, he made me.  He made me see that just because my left eye wasn't working, I still had a partially good eye and imagination that would help me take some damn good pictures.  He was right.  My pictures may not be as good as they once were, but it makes me feel better when I am taking them.  My favorite pictures to take are wildlife, landscapes, and sports.  A sample of my work is below.  I am considering making a photo book with stories to sell to help me with some of my medical expenses.

     Now, about my other passion.... COOKING.  I have found a whole different type of joy in this pursuit.  I love being creative and putting together my own recipes.  My kids call these "mommy concoctions."  However, now, they help me with the cooking and the recipes.  For most of the time, they have to do most of the work.  Even though I do have good days, a lot of days the headaches and vision are so bad, that I cannot do a lot.

     Even though my daughters are now 18 and 21, (and the 18 year old is a "vegetarian") getting them to eat vegetables and eat healthy is a chore.  However, last night, for the first time, I succeeded in getting both of my daughters and my husband to eat Zucchini for the first time.  Here is how I did it.

•      I cut the zucchini into large chunks and put the chunks in a sauce pan with chopped up onion and bell pepper.  Seasoned the water with salt.  Let the mixture come to a rolling boil, and let it boil for 30 minutes.  So the zucchini was incredibly tender.
•      After draining the mixture, I put a stick of butter into the pot and let it melt.
•      Using my immersion blender, I mixed the melted butter, vegetables, 2 cups of shredded cheese, a quarter cup of mayonnaise, and one egg together.  When that was sufficiently mixed, I added a packet of Stove Top Savory Herb stuffing mixture into the pot and mixed it all together.
•      Finally, I placed the mixture in a casserole dish.  Cooked it for 30 minutes at 350.  For the final 5 minutes of cook time, I placed French friend onions on the top. 

 

     I told everyone it was stuffing - leaving out the part that it had zucchini, onions, and peppers in it.  And everyone loved it.  The entire thing was eaten.  This was my own version of "semi-homemade" cooking.  I do this quiet often and I don't write down the recipes.  However, when something goes over this well, I have to remember it.

     



A baby elk.  Taken in the Great Smoky Mountains close to Cherokee, NC.  Taken after I had surgery on my left eye.



Baby black bear cub.  Taken in Cades Cove, TN in the Great Smoky Mountains.  Taken before my surgery.

Pet Peeves #1

I am going to take this moment to get up on my soap box and speak out about a couple of  my pet peeves.

I am NOT a "grammar Nazi," but come on people.  It is not that hard to proofread things before you post them online.  Spell check cannot help you when the word you type is an actually word.  It cannot tell you that you are using it in the wrong context.  Here are three on the biggest offenders that I see online everyday.
 
1) Your versus You're. 
              YOUR means that it belongs to you.  It is your car.  It is your house.  It is your dictionary and you should use it. 
              YOU'RE is a contraction that means YOU ARE.  You're a dumbass.  You're using the wrong spelling.  You're a high school graduate?

2) There vs. They're vs. Their.
                THERE is a place.  Put in there.  He lives there.  There is where you park the car.
                THEY'RE is a contraction that marries THEY ARE.  They're going to the movies  They're getting married.  
                 THEIR means belonging the them.  It is their place.  It is their car.  It is their dictionary, learn to use it.

3) One vs. Won
                 One is a number.  There is one brain cell left in his head.  He only had one drink.  He scored one run.
                 Won means that you or someone else has been victorious.  He won the spelling bee.  The Braves won the game.  I won the lottery - in my dreams.

Ok.  Soapbox rant is over.  Too often we - as a whole - depend way too much on our computers and spellcheck.  Spell check is not all knowing and all seeing.  It can tell you if a word is spelled wrong or not, but it cannot tell you if you are using the word in the wrong context.  Turn off spellcheck and keep your brain sharp.

This Is Me... This is Who I Am...

Writing a blog.  This is new.  I know many of the people who read this blog will not know who I am.  So, let me introduce myself to you.

 

To start with, I am a 41 year old mom of two girls.  My "girls" are aged 18 and 21.  I graduated high school in 1990 and in 1991, I married my high school sweetheart.  That was 22 years ago, and we're still married and we have managed to raise two wonderful girls.  While I love my husband and our girls, our lives have not always been sunshine and roses.  Life has been a roller coaster with unbelievable highs and unbearable lows.  That is why I call my blog "Through Tears and Laughter" because that is all I know.  Sometimes the laughter has been to cover up the tears.  That is how I was raised.

My mother and father are both still living.  They have been married now for 57 years.  I am the last of 7 children.  The oldest child is 56 and the youngest (next to me) is 49.  Then there is me.  I am 41.  There are three boys and four girls.  One of my nephews always like to say that I broke up "The Brady Bunch."

Speaking of my nephew... I have LOTS of nieces and nephews and great-nieces and great-nephews.  At last count, I believe the total was 30.  But I am always leaving someone off when I do the count.  Don't even ask me how many aunts, uncles, and cousins I have.  I could not even begin to count them all.  My mom and dad both come from large families.

When I got married, right after high school, I did not have a chance to go to college.  To be honest, even if I could have, I don't think I would.  At that time, I really didn't have any idea what I wanted to do with my life.  I was working in childcare when I got married and I worked in that profession for several years.  Until my second daughter was born.  I worked my way up from assistant teacher to assistant director.  However, I knew that was not what I wanted to do with the rest of my life.  When I left that job, I went to work as an office manager and found that I liked that job.

In 2003; while I was working a full time job and had two young girls at home, I went back to school.  I started off by getting  my Associates in Accounting in 2005 and then continued on to get my Bachelors in Business Administration in 2008.  I took full course loads while working full-time.  It wasn't easy, but then, nothing worth having and fighting for is ever easy.

Then, in 2009, the tears really started to fall and didn't let up.  

 

I had been diagnosed with diabetes in 1998.  I changed my diet, started exercising, and went on oral medication.  That wasn't enough.  In 2009, I started having migraines.  After several trips to the doctor and ER, it was traced back to my diabetes and my medication was increased.  Early in 2010, I started having chest pains.  Severe enough for my husband to rush me to the ER.  I spent two nights in the hospital and had many test in and out of the hospital.  After having a PetScan, it was suggested that I have a biopsy because there was the possibility of lung cancer.  Thankfully, I didn't have cancer, but I was eventually diagnosed with sarcoidosis.  Put on a regimen of oral steroids and breathing treatments.

If you don't have diabetes, you will not know this.  In fact, I didn't know it, until the sarcoidosis diagnosis.  Prednisone - the oral steroid prescribed to me - can make your blood sugar levels go crazy.  My diabetes was no longer under control.  This was all too apparent very early in 2011.  

 

Sitting at home one night, watching television with my family, I had a searing pain shoot through my head and then I felt different.  The left side of my face started drooping and I was slurring my speech.  Another rush to the ER.  I thought I was having a stroke.  It wasn't a stroke.  It was a Bell's Palsy attack.  Again, something I had never heard of.  It commonly strikes people with diabetes and sarcoidosis.  Yay.  Something else to worry about.  Another night in the hospital and new medicines and a new doctor.  Now, I was seeing a neurologist in addition to the pulmonologist and my regular doctor.  However, that was not enough.

Later on in 2011, I had another trip to the hospital with chest pains and a pulse rate over 160.  This time, it was a week in the hospital.  More test than I can count.  When I left the hospital, I had three more oral medications and TWO different insulins.  So, now, I am an insulin dependent diabetic.

In between all of the major issues, I was also diagnosed with sleep apnea, fibromyalgia, diabetic neuropathy, and high blood pressure.

Then in 2012, I woke up one morning and I had no vision in my left eye.  After several visits and test, it was determined that I had diabetic retinopathy.  I had laser surgery on my right eye to stop the bleeding in it.  However, there was far too much damage done to the left eye, including a detached retina.  I had invasive surgery on my left eye in July of 2012.  As of right now, I have no measurable vision in my left eye.  The bleeding in the right eye is getting worse and at this time, I have 20/100 vision in that eye.

Through all of these problems, in such a short time, I also lost my job due to the health problems I was having. 

I explain all of this to you, not to gain sympathy, but for you to understand me.  At times, I will feel sorry for myself and get down and depressed.  Those are the days that I cannot stop crying and I have to smile through the pain and tears.  But, those days are few and far between.  Though I am unable to do most of what I enjoy or used to enjoy such as driving through the mountains and taking pictures, and I have to have my computer text magnified 200 percent, I am not giving up.  I have my life.  I have my children.  I have my family.  

Through pain comes strength.  Without sadness, you would never know happiness.  Without heartbreak, you would never know love.  Without tears, you would never know the true meaning of laughter.

I hope you enjoy reading this blog and I hope you share it with friends and family member that might enjoy it also.

I look forward to meeting you and taking you through a journey with me.